| wow..i havent written in this thing in ages! ahaha
my..how life changes..so many things have happened since i last wrote in this thing...
i have to say im really happy with my life right now with the way things are
i really couldnt ask for more
i got into my dream school UCSD im soo excited!! starting in the fall going to have to get used to living away from home and meeting new ppl excited and scared at the same time >_<
I have a really wonderful boyfriend who i love very much
he is always there for me and is the person i will miss the most when i move to san diego
always telling me がんばつて!!
たけくんありがとうだいすきだよ :]
ひとつひとつが愛しい
君がいれば 何もいらない
perhaps ill start to write more in here maybe??
right now i just want to get this stupid research project done with!! (tiff feels my pain) T_T
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| wow..i havent written in this thing for like a year...so much has happened since that last entry..ive experienced a love that i thought was not possible for me..i was so happy...and recently i just had my world crash down...right now..i kind of feel lost and broken..it really helps to go out and do stuff and just hangout with ppl and have fun..and not have to think or worry to just relax and forget...mostly im pretty happy i guess...but at times i do rem and the memories do come back and make me smile and i shed a tear every now and then...just yest..after awhile...i took out a pic that i had hidden the only one picture that i had kept of us because it was my favorite...we were hugging and had huge smiles on our faces...we were so happy...what happened...sometimes i ask myself when it is that things started to go wrong...where all that happiness went...right now...i dont really know what to think about you anymore..you said you still wanted to be friends..but after what you did..i kind of question..if you really meant what you said..i dont kno what i could have possibly done to make you do that...it makes me really sad that you would do that because you were someone very important to me..but i guess..i wasnt for you..no matter how hard i tried..it just never worked..you were never satisfied...but at least i know i can say..that i gave it my best..i kno that i tried so hard to understand you..but you just never let anyone in...right now..im just living life and being as optimistic as possible..right now im not searching for love its not something that i want at this moment...i have had guys ask me out..but im just not ready...i just need space and time alone to myself right now to just sort things out and get over this breakup fully...i guess all i can really say..is thank you...for showing me what its like to be loved and i hope that you can find the happiness your looking for.. right now..i just cant bring myself to talk to you..not
because i hate you or anything..just im scared..that maybe your mad and
you dont want to be friends or talk to me again..so ill just wait until
you want talk again.....and maybe someday will be friends again but i guess for now its better that we go our separate ways...
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| Fri- bf came back! yay! <3
Sat- Went to Santa Monica Beach with bf for our 1 month <3
ive never been to that pier before hmm... it was nice...the ocean
breeze felt awesome since it was soo frekain hott >< hmm we saw a
pelican and a seal! lol ^^ we went on the huge ferris wheel the
view was spectacular =D i loved it! =] must go there again sometime
Sun- went to Anime Expo with Twin and Nam and twins bro lol
the costumed ppl look so interesting..ahaha
when they throw free stuff ppl are crazy -___- i got hit and knocked over by some tall asian dude..x_x lol
there was a girl dressed as the ring..it was so freaky...no idea what that has to do with anime..lol x_X
i bought a black bunny hat and twin bought the white one ^^ its soo cutee ><
later we took pics at CUE! =]
im goin to miss you twin =[
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| gahh..im so bored...><
i miss you...<3
i hope your ok...
i cant wait till you get back...then i get to hangout with you =]
im so sad..why are so many of my close friends leaving >< not in this state either =[
im miss you guys...sooo much...=[
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| wow..been so long since i wrote in this thing xp ahaha
yay i get to start driving now! ahaha yeaa im late -___-"
hmm hope i dont crash into anything...x_X
hmm..lots of things to do =]
go to AX with twin! <3
hangout with friends before they leave =[
go clubbing?? lol with ppl i kno this time tho -___-
watch more movies? 0_o
been watching so many movies recently x_X
watched Nacho Libre yest with Cathy Robert and Eric
lol so funiee xp ahaha
go job hunting with mei mei so she doesnt have to move =[
yupp lots of things to occupy myself with :]
hopefully i get to drive soon get license and everything so i can go places explore! yupp lotsa funn =]
gas is expensive tho =/
hmm maybe play pool? go bowling? lol yoga??
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